Tattoo You

The title for this post was taken from a Rolling Stones album that came out in 1981. I've never been much of a Stones fan, but since the album is from the year I graduated high school and since I'm going to talk about tattoos, I guess it's at least tangentially appropriate.

My last Big-Bad is coming up this week, December 3, to be exact. My birthday is 10 days later, December 13. I'm thinking I want to get a tattoo for my birthday. Specifically, I want to get a design that symbolizes survival since I will have survived the first stage of my breast cancer treatment. I would like, I think, to get something that I can add on to at each stage of treatment and survival that I reach: when I finish Taxol, when I finish radiation, when I finish breast reconstruction, when I reach 2 years, 5 years, 10 years, etc. (assuming I make it that long). I have already checked with the Good Nurse Sue, who told me that as long as my white counts are good when I get the tattoo, she has no problem with it. I've also already checked with my supervisor, Suzanne, who tells me that the library does not have a policy banning visible tattoos. I'd like to get it on the inside of my right forearm, I think, perhaps wrapping around my arm; I also want black work. When I first started to think about this idea, I did a simple Google image search on "survival symbols," and one of the first things that popped up was bamboo. This page was one of the first I looked at, and after many hours of looking at other pages, I still like many of the images here best. Never having gotten a tattoo, I have no idea whether a competent ink artist could adapt one or more of these images into something that would look good going up the inside of my forearm or wrapping around my arm. The reason this page came up in my search is because of these words on it: "Bamboo, because it is flexible and can withstand storms without breaking, is a symbol of survival in adversity." I like that.

I have also thought about doing some sort of saying in Elvish from J.R.R. Tolkien's "Lord of the Rings". I believe I mentioned this somewhere on Facebook, but I don't think I've talked about it here. I've read that people who personify their cancer and visualize something killing it often fare better than those who don't. So when I've tried to visualize my cancer, I have thought of the Nazgul from LotR, and I've thought about Arwen saving Frodo in the first movie, which I watched again just last night. When I'm in the throes of a Big-Bad, I feel just about as bad and helpless as Frodo does after he's stabbed by the Nazgul, and I probably look almost as bad. When Aragorn, Sam, Merry, Pippin, and Arwen are doing everything they can to save Frodo, it's like Kyle and my friends supporting me, as well as the medical team treating me. But Arwen riding off to Rivendell with Frodo and managing to outride and drown the Nazgul -- that scene is absolutely riveting to me (made me cry last night) and is what I imagine when I try to visualize beating this cancer. So that's why I've thought about either a saying in Elvish or an Elvish design from the book. Maybe I need to pull out my copy of the trilogy and see what it is that Arwen actually says in that scene to make the waters rise (if it's even in the book).

These are the two ideas I've had so far. If you have an idea that you think might appeal to me, I'd love to hear about it. My friend Eric suggested some sort of design from World of Warcraft, but I can't really think of anything from there that I'd want to live with and look at for the rest of my life.

So far, in trying to research artists in the DFW area, I have found the following (some are in Austin; if I chose to work with one of these, I'd have to wait until next February when I will be in Austin for a conference). If you know anything about these or other artists that I haven't found yet, I'd be grateful for any info you can provide. I obviously will be living with this ink the rest of my life and want to be absolutely sure that I am working with someone who is not only a great artist (i.e., does a LOT of custom black work) but whose shop is also known to be clean, clean, CLEAN. The problem with most of these is that they all seem to specialize in color.

Elm Street Tattoos (Dallas)

Perfection Tattoo, Chris Trevino (Austin)

True Blue Tattoo, esp. Rachel (Austin)

Rock of Ages, esp. Hector (Austin)

Diablo Rojo, esp. Raul (Austin)

Psycho Clown Tattoos (Fort Worth)

Randy Adams (Fort Worth)

Thanks in advance for any advice or ideas you may have.

As for the past week, I am SO VERY thankful that it has been blessedly almost side-effect free. Everything I discussed in my last post is either entirely resolved or almost gone. I had a horrible day on Wednesday with seasonal allergies, but that obviously has nothing to do with chemo. They seemed to improve on Thursday and now I've just got a few sniffles here and there. I have NO mouth sores, which is simply amazing. I don't know what's working right, but whatever it is, I hope it repeats itself next cycle.

We had a really wonderful Thanksgiving. My brother, Paul (who is technically my brother-in-law but is my brother in my heart), came over from his home in northeast Louisiana on Wednesday afternoon and spent Thursday with us. He had to leave early on Friday for a family reunion near Bryan, TX, but I was so happy to see him and get to spend some quality time with him! Of course, we all missed my sister Ann, who died in October 2006. We were also lucky enough to have my friend and colleague from work, Rafia, come over to join us for a completely nontraditional Thanksgiving meal of grilled New York strips, cheesy potato casserole, squash, green salad, asparagus with garlic/lemon sauce, and for dessert, homemade chocolate ice cream. Rafia brought her Wii, and we played lots of games after dinner, and I laughed until my stomach hurt. A good kind of hurt, though :).

I hope you are well, warm, safe, and happy. Peace, Jody.